I broke someone's heart. And it's like I broke my own heart too.
I broke daddy long legs' heart last night.
Ang hirap talaga. Kasi alam ko yung pakiramdam. Pero kasi kelangan. Para rin naman kasi to sa ikabubuti niya, namin. Gusto kong maging masaya kami.
Iniisip ko na kung nagpatuloy kami, mas malaki yung chance na masaktan ko siya sa mas masakit na dahilan. Kung mapagdesisyunan ko naman na mag-yes sa kanya ng hindi ko ganun kamahal, e baka ma-take for granted ko siya. Kagalit-galit yun. Baka hindi niya ako mapatawad. I'd lose him forever. At isa pa, he doen't deserve that. In fact, no one does. He deserves someone who is willing to love him with all her heart. At sa tingin ko hindi ako yun.
I had my heart broken once upon a time the way I had broken his. May idea ako kung gaano kasakit. Iniisip ko baka galit siya sa akin ngayon. I can't blame him. He's hurt. Sa mga oras na yun, gusto ko talaga siyang yakapin. Tell him I'm sorry for hurting him. Make him understand that it is for his own good. Assure him that he will find another girl who wouldn't be stupid enough to let him go.
Nag-sorry ako para sa sakit, hindi para sa ginawa ko. Kasi I meant what I did. Antagal kong nag-isip paano gagawin yun sa hindi masakit na paraan pero there is really no easy way.
I was asking him if we can still be friends. He told me maybe. I must have hurt him too much. He sent me his farewell message. I was touched. I never knew how much impact I made on him. I guess he really loved me all this time. And that he really meant what he said when he told me how lucky I am to be loved by him.






Tas nag-GM ako. Sa Gfs ko, kay Babe, sa elem friends ko (BFFs).

Yung problema ko this time? Mind versus heart ulit e but this time, it's the other way around. My mind wants him but my heart won't succumb.
Gawd I'm a mess 70% of the time. Someone fix me. Kahit ako hindi ko na minsan maintindihan yung sarili ko. :'(